This is pretty much what you end up with after a night of constant crying.
It’s heartbreakingly painful how often I catch myself whisper my wishes of disappearance and death whilst crying.
Do you know how to stop your heart from crying so your mind can take the lead?
I sure don’t.
Wanna know what’s dumb?
Visas and passports and gates and green cards and life and the future and the past…
I hate everything at the moment.
I rarely ever feel so dead and alone. Alone and suffering.
I feel like a mop.
What do you do when your mind wants to leave but your heart is begging you to stay???!!!
Can someone for god’s sake help?!