Hope your weekend went well. Mine was eventless and calm which was very much appreciated. I spent most of it planning the upcoming week’s study schedule so I don’t fall behind on that. It makes the exams a lot easier when I remain on top of all the study material.
This first period (Jan-March) I’m going a master course on social problems regarding kids and youth along side a master course on organisation and leadership. I’ve also for some unknown reason decided to start learning AWS cloud computing as if what I had on my plate wasn’t enough.
During the second period (March-May) I’ll be doing a master course on alcohol and narcotics along side a master course on evidence baser social work. That’s gonna be fun!
Here’s a song to help you along the week and to help you heal. It helps me. ^^
My favourite part of the lyrics is this bit:
“On days I hate being myself, days I want to disappear forever Let’s make a door in your heart Open the door and this place will await It’s okay to believe, the Magic Shop will comfort you
While drinking a glass of hot tea And looking up at the Milky Way You’ll be alright, oh, this here is the Magic Shop”
How has your weekend been? Did you get to rest a bit?
My weekend went by well. Knowing my master courses begin on Monday, I made sure to rest as much as possible. I did plan the upcoming weeks study-work balance so I have enough time set aside for studying. I wanted to start watching Kinn Porsche this weekend by I’m in one of those mental states where I can’t take in new shows. So I stuck to Youtube shows instead.
My first two courses that will begin next week is Organisation and Leadership, and Children and Youth II (I’ve did level I earlier in the program). I have a feeling it’s gonna be hard but I’m up for the challenge.
I recently discovered an artist who’s music is *chef’s kiss*. These as so far my favourite, listen at your own risk though, they’re for sure 15+ if not 18+.
Some songs are better without the music video, to me, these are those kind of songs because I find them much more enjoyable when I can use my own imagination as I listen to them.
If you like the recommendations, let me know and I’ll keep them up.
What’s your plan for dinner? It’s almost dinner time here. I took some chicken out to defrost but I don’t know what to do with it yet haha ^^
I’m gonna try to turn the chicken into something edible and them work out, shower and eat. Have you watches Wednesday on Netflix yet? I’m a few episodes in but it’s developing kind of slow. I am such a huge Addams family fan so I really hope it picks up speed. Morticia Addams is such a great character, if you haven’t seen the old Addams family shows you should definitely check them out.
I’m trying really hard to update you often, can you tell?^^
This week both flew by but also couldn’t not seem to end. I’m gonna work tomorrow so technically my day hasn’t ended yet but I don’t have to interact with anyone during the weekend so mentally it’s the end of the week for me^^
I’m a little annoyed and my anxiety is a bit OTT these last couple of days but I’m trying to keep it at bay.
One positive news:
Taeyang from BIGBANG had his comeback today and his comeback song featured Jimin from BTS. I don’t know if you realise how epic that is but I’m gonna break it down just in case:
BTS took inspiration from BIGBANG when they were trying to enter the music business. They grew up listening to them, and to now see them feature on one of their songs is such a huge achievement and full circle moment that I can’t even put it to words. ALSO a bit part of why Taeyang probably had Jimin feature his comeback song is because BTS are now so big that he probably needed their clout to get back in to the game.
Listen, I love BIGBANG, they will forever be the reason I survived until I found BTS, BUT facts are facts: they’re not as big or legendary as they used to be.
It’s still a very cool moment to see the two reasons you survived all this time collaborate.
You read that right! I just now handed in my dissertation. The opposition will be held next week, I’ll get the time and date in 1-2 days along information about who it is that will b opposing on m dissertation and who’s paper I will be opposing on.
My dissertation was about a studie I made with my research partner regarding the difficulties people with psychosis illnesses face when trying to enter the labour market. We did a qualitative research where we interviewed 12 people in total with many interesting findings. Once the paper is approved and online on the DIVA portal, I’ll make sure to share it with you here.
I don’t have anything important to share today. However, I wanted to share a funny correlation.
As you know, I’m a huge BTS fan and have been since they debuted.
If you also have been following them since then, you’ll know that they debuted with a song called No More Dream. It’s a really nice song with a very powerful meaning and message.
Fast forward to 2022: The youngest member of BTS, Jungkook performed on the opening of the FIFA 2022 with a song called Dreamers. This was legendary for two different reasons.
One, Jungkook was the first ever Korean to perform the opening of a FIFA tournament, he was also the first solo act of a FIFA tournament opening since 1998.
Two: To debut with a song called No More Dream and to then perform solo in front of the whole world with a song called Dreamers is such a full circle moment!
Today is quite cold in Sweden! How is it where you are? I remember you mentioning you liked hot chocolate, if you were here we could snuggle up on the sofa with hot chocolate^^ Did you like mini marshmallows? I don’t remember if you like it or not…
This is what I imagine is sipping on if you were here now
A hot chocolate like that can only and only be accompanied with a movie. How about The Greatest Showman? Or maybe Coco?
Today has been filled with dissertation writing and soon I’ll be off to look at a new potential place. We are aiming to move out before the end of the year so we thought we’d slowly start looking at new places.
We’re also slowly looking into our honeymoon planning. We never went on one when we got married because we both had to focus on work, so it was postponed a year. We’ve already booked the plane tickets and hotels, so no it’s activities left to book. We’re going to Seoul for a week, Tokyo for 3 days and Osaka for 3 days. We might visit Kyoto in between Tokyo and Osaka but that’s not fully set yet.
You know me, I’m mostly excited about Seoul! I haven’t been back there since like 6 years now. I miss it. It’s just as much home to me as Sweden is, if not more.
Oh also, I’ve started on two new fiction stories, I’ll share them here with you when they’re done. 🙂
Enjoy this song while you’re here. It’s a cover made by two of the actors from the LITA series I mentioned last time. Such talent these guys have! They can act, sing, dance and so much more.
It’s been a while, I know. I meant to share all the things that happened throughout the year with you yet I couldn’t bring myself to do so. Somehow, sharing it with you made it all real, and I didn’t want it to be. Or… I don’t think I care if it happens or not, I’m just shocked it did happen… it that makes sense?
Regardless, here we are and I can no longer not share these things will you.
What’s happened over the last few months? I got married, I lost contact will most of my family in the process due to disagreements in my choice of partner (or his ethnicity, I should say). The choice to drop contact was mine though, I think if I didn’t cut ties, they probably wouldn’t but I have come to realise that trying to keep them in my life threatens my peace and mental health. So I made a choice and I stand behind it.
The wedding was nice and lowkey, not low key enough it you ask me, but everyone enjoyed it so I’m satisfied with the outcome.
I’ll try to share some photos in the future, I don’t have them online but I’ll take some photos of our album ^^
What else has happened? Around fall, i slowly felt a de-personalization creeping up on me. It was almost like I no longer knew who I was, what I wanted out of life and if I really wanted all the things I want. Who am I even? Do I really wanna be the person I am? Do I want the life I dream of? Who is this person in the mirror? It almost felt like I lost the voice inside my head and it made me feel lost. Inner chaos, I call it. My friends reason with it as being an aftermath of everything that has happened throughout the year but I don’t know. Maybe. What do you think my love?
I haven’t been able to quite solve it but I am trying to heal step by step. You know I’ve always heeled with music and this time around it helped me once again. I found some new artists and songs with lyrics that made me feel a bit more grounded… or heard, I should say.
This is two of the songs I’ve had on repeat for months now.
I hadn’t heard of Jeff Satur before and this song hit me like a truck.
Something else that has helped me that I highly recommend for you too is getting back in touch with out hobbies that I’ve forgotten about. I used to read a lot, write novels and fiction, paint, play guitar and dance but I noticed as I grew older I somehow left those things in the past. So I’m trying to bring that back now.
Something else that has helped me heal that I didn’t realise it was going to? I found a thai series that ended up being my anchor and savour. I think see the couple in that series love each other the way I wish to be loved and understood helped me in a way. Almost like I filled me cup by seeing them fill each others cups if that makes sense? Haha it sounds weird when I say it out loud like this but I think you know what I mean.
If you ever wanna give it a chance, the series is called Love In The Air.
Moving on, The new year has now began and it has already hit me with it’s new obstacles. The first one being to start looking for a job in time for finishing university. I’m hopeful though.
I’m off to apply to some new jobs, I’ll try my very very best to keep you updated more often.
It’s February already. time is running by so fast.
The wedding date is slowly closing in and we are step by step finishing all the planning as the days go by. My internship has started and did so with a bang. I am slowly getting a grasp of things but there’s a lot to learn.
I know you’re not a huge fan like I am but I just need to show you the new shoes I ordered and that came today:
I’ll probably not keep the white and gold one to the right but the other two: I’m in love. I’m gonna try them on after my work today. I really hope the one far to the left fits, I’m in love with that one in particular.
Off to pressing news: Todrick Hall as dropped a new album: Gayme Over!
Stop what you’re doing, go to Youtube or Spotify and listen to it! I highly recommend the song called 69 and Rich Forever, they’re one of my favourites.
I’m gonna, as usual, start off by saying sorry for being away a ridiculous amount of time. My goal was to get back to writing to you regularly but the end of summer 2021 hit me like a truck in the best way possible and I’ve been busy non-stop since then.
At the end of august, me and my mr went on holiday to Alanya in Turkey. The resort itself sucked and didn’t deserve the 5 stars on their wall. The trip ended in the most wonderful way though: We got engaged!!
We are planning the wedding for June 2022 and have already booked a photographer, the ceremony at City Hall and the location for the reception. The invitations are out and the rsvps are dropping in one by one. Due to the new wave of covid-19 with the omnicron variant, we’re trying to make the plans fit the restrictions in place.
There’s a lot left to plan but the pieces are starting to fall in it’s places.
Uni has been a storm of tasks, I have my last exam next week Tuesday after that I only have my field study and bachelor’s thesis. I am super excited about my field study and hoping it goes well.
I’m gonna go and prep for the exam, I’m really gonna try to not disappear again.
Ever since I was a kid, I loved playing ratchet and clank. The first ever Ratchet and Clank I got was the second on on PlayStation 2. However, a few days ago I found the OG OG game on play store: Ratchet and Clank 1!!!
I can’t even explain how freaking nostalgic and cool this is!! This is literally the story of how they met and became the best duo ever! (At this point I’m sure you know my love for videogames)
Our Mutual Distance 